How was your week? Mine was like the weather, hot and cold. One of those donât know if youâre coming or going some weeks.
Itâs steroid time again and that means heavy chemo as well. The day before chemo, I take two pills in the morning and a half hour after taking the pills, I get dizzy and flush. It looks like Iâm having a hot flash from the neck up. That must be what people mean when they say they are going to blow their stack.
I have been having pain behind the eyes and an upset stomach. A couple of hours after that, itâs go, go, go and my whole place starts to get scrubbed and my brain is on fast forward. I live in a small two-bedroom mobile home that is older than me, but I think itâs great. I take two more steroids before bed which I think are to wear out your brain with staying up all night. I sure get a lot of creative thinking done.
In the morning, I take four more steroids before I get my treatment, but the effects of the pills are different in the morning. The overdrive is gone which may be from the anxiety of getting ready for chemo, but the headache is in full gear.
I have to take the pills before the treatments or I wonât be able to get the chemo. Itâs too dangerous without the steroids and my place does get shiny clean so that is a good thing.
Chemo went okay. They tell me if I donât have an allergic reaction on the first or second rounds, itâs very unlikely I ever will. A round is a chemo treatment every 21 days in my case. I have two rounds down now and four more of the heavy stuff to go and we will see what happens.
Sitting for six hours with hard meds running through your veins is not anyoneâs idea of a great way to spend a summer day. Most people would think of it as torture, but for me I see it differently. I see it as another chance. Itâs another try to beat this disease. When the heavy treatments are done, things will look up again. I am not just hoping on it, I am counting on it. I have a lot of living left to do yet.
I feel scared I have to go through this, but I also feel good that I am getting the chance to be able to. My motto has always beenâŠ fight, fight and give it your best shot.
Well, two days have gone by since I had chemo and I feel blah. I canât think of another word for it. I am so tired that I canât get up off the couch. Every bone aches and itâs not in the joints. Itâs in the middle of the bones and every tissue on my body. Even my socks hurt my feet when they are on, but I am too tired to take them off.
I donât want any food because it all tastes like different chemicals. It has no taste or itâs grainy and hard to swallow.
My brother James tells me I have to think of it as survivor mode. He says, âbe like your favourite survivor guy, Les Stroud, Survivor Manâ. I think his show is great and I learn a lot from him. If you donât feel like eating, do it anyway. Just eat the foods that give your body the most strength and nourishment so it can repair itself. Youâre not doing it for taste, youâre doing it for survival.
Now, like that toilet paper commercial, letâs talk a minute about your behindâŠ ha. Everything that goes in your body has to come out in some way and for me, itâs day four for diarrhea. As you know, heavy chemo is killing everything that is fast growing, so itâs toxic.
Getting it out of my body is excruciating. Even a cup of coffee, soup or anything else comes out in a few minutes and its burns. Iâm glad for baby diaper cream and pay more for the soft toilet paper. I am also really happy for Imodium because I use a lot of it when the elimination process starts.
I am starting on day five after my treatment. Thatâs the days when my blood county starts to fall so keep your fingers crossed that I donât get a fever or end up in the hospital again. I am also getting a high pitch ringing sound in my ears, like if you were standing under high voltage wires.
I still have hairâŠ woo hoo. The only thing is that I look like Beetlejuice. Iâm beyond a bad hair day. The great thing this week is my granddaughter turned 11 years old on Sunday. When I first started this fight, I didnât think I would get to see Vada turn one year old and now itâs 11 years later. I know have another little granddaughter Emma who is one. Their smiles make every pain worth the fight.
I also have a new batch of guppies this week. Weight wise, Iâm now under 150 poundsâŠ.woo hoo.
Have a great week folks and yes, those long leg spiders are everywhere.
- Submitted by Kathy Golemiec who is currently undergoing treatment for cancer. She writes a weekly column on her experiences.